Dear Ng.,

I woke up to the emptiness of being alone. Today felt like one of those days I wished the floor could just open and swallow me up. This was not the future I wanted, not the life I had hoped for. I felt so lonely, but strangely, that loneliness felt more comforting than the idea of having company.  Jewel… It’s been so long since I saw her in my dreams. I miss her so much. I had become so consumed by the search for her in the real world, I had forgotten the real people around me. I pushed everyone away because I wasn’t sure if they were real to me in the first place. My Jewel... How I longed for her company. The only company that kept me at peace. I know she’s not real, but she felt more real than most people I’d come to know.  “You look lost in your thoughts again?” Ife’s voice snapped me out of my reverie. She was standing in the doorway, staring at me through the mirror I’d been fixated on for too long. She chose to visit my apartment because she missed me, or at least, th...